Amber Update

I'm currently co-fronting with Anna Beth (original host). Today was kind of long. We got up at 4:30 am, blogged and wrote and tweeted and generally wore our minds out until 12:30 pm, then the skills worker, Nicole, came and Anna Beth co-fronted with Anna. I stayed in the background and hoped no one would talk about making me do the dishes. They didn't!

I had Britt in my ear most of the afternoon, pestering me with questions. And Baby. She really wants to play with a doll she knows is in the closet. It's new for these girls to even be acknowledged. Since I didn't even know about their existence as alters until Monday/Tuesday, I'm still recovering from the shock. Sure, I've had voices and weird thoughts and feelings for years, but I never knew I had my own system of multiples. It's all quite overwhelming.

Keeper is keeping Sammy J and Jez in darkness and Red is quiet right now. 10 mg of Ritalin has calmed things down. Charlie is off to get us all food. I am playing around online with Anna Beth and trying to get my head in the mood to write at least some poetry. I'm working on several novels right now. I'm trying to participate in NaNoWriMo but it's so hard when you have six hours of therapy in one week--well, seven actually.

Got to go. Charlie's back.

-Amber