what its like

what is it like being me? how can i even answer that? i dont get up like you do in the morning. i dont eat breakfast or have coffee or put on clothes like you do. i maybe watch from inside the head while someone else does it and maybe im inside altogether having no say what goes on and sitting on a couch watching tv or something and how can you even understand that? i dont know. its impossibly fucked up for people whove never done it. sometimes i think the only people ill ever be able to talk to are other alters, cuz who else is gonna believe something as fucked up as us? we are fucked up.

-crystal